Gone crazy

Well I think I am officially going crazy, if it's not wedding stuff then it's health stuff, job stuff (going back soon hopefully), or other things running through my head 24/7. Ever since James proposed I have been trying to think of everything that needs to be done and planned for the wedding, I even bought some books to help. I keep feeling overwhelmed and like I'm running out of time, one month has almost passed and I feel like I don't have anything done. James and I still haven't really had a chance to sit down and plan anything, which is a big part of why I'm stressing. Then there is the issue of money, I mean I don't want a huge formal wedding or anything, just something simple that we will all enjoy. But as I'm looking at things I keep wondering how we are going to afford it all and still be able to have a honeymoon and not be paying for it forever. I also, hopefully, will be returning to work soon and that will cut down on the time I can spend checking on things and making plans, and I don't know how that will affect money because I don't know if I will be working full-time over night like I want or if I will still be working days part-time and how it will all effect my pay. Hopefully I will be overnights full-time and my pay won't be lowered by going from cashier to stocker. I have a feeling that working overnights will only last until about August because I want to return to school and I don't think I will be able to go to school and work nights with out getting too stressed. That's another thing I have to worry about money for. My parents did get the Texas Tomorrow thing (I have 3 years of college paid for) but I still have to worry about lab fees and books, which cost almost as much as the classes themselves, plus gas, which my truck is horrible on gas mileage, but James did say that he would let me drive his car. Another thing that has been on my mind is my health. I went Tuesday for my CT scan and I will go this Tuesday (23) to get the results and hopefully my doctor will release me back to work, and maybe then I will quit going crazy from being stuck at home. I know one thing that he is going to tell me though, and that is that I need to lose weight, which I know, but with me being stuck at home bored and depressed at times I tend to eat more often and it is generally junk food so I have gained quite a bit of weight, the heaviest I've ever been. I need to lose weight to help prevent some health issues that run in my family to include diabetes and high blood pressure. I want to lose weight before my wedding because I don't want to be huge (which is how I feel) on my wedding day. I don't want to be a skinny toothpick, but I don't want to be as big as I am. Once I get back to work I know I will lose weight because I will be moving around and not sitting and eating. Hopefully it will help me get back down to where I was when I started at Wal-Mart, if I can get to that weight by my wedding (and if it slims down the right areas, 2 major areas) then I will be happy with that. After that I will just have try to get into exercising and eating better, which I was doing for a while and then durring the chemo treatments my tastes got all screwed up and I started eating more junk and drinking a lot of sodas. I am trying to drink more water, but bad experiences or taste durring the chemo turned me off, but I am getting back into it. Why is it that foods that are suppose to be "health foods" of healthier for you, for example snacks, are more expensive than junk food. And why can't healthier foods taste better, I mean they don't taste horrible, but they aren't as tempting as junk.